Thanks...

To all of you out there that have been giving me that moral support, though I might have played it cool and seemed unphased by it all here is a little musical dedication (Mae, Kola, Faya, Brotha Iman, Samir, Chris, Yanyan and all the very few out there that know what I'm really going through) : Bill Withers - 'Make A Smile For Me' 

That song represents my state of mind right about now. Don't get choked up now, lol! And on this note, here's that quote! 
Peace (in the deepest sense of the word!) 

"But even still a good samaritan is Z-Ro's way 
And with that Christian attitude I caught a homeboy case 
I done took too many blows, a punchin bag is how I feel 
The deep depression starts to set, sanity's outta here 
I start my mission tryin to find my fate CDC #4 in name 
I'm feelin oh-so-helpless in this place 
I want revenge it's heavy on my mind but ain't central 
Say don't fight evil with evil, try to relax and do yo' time 
I heard a voice say there wasn't no need in actin up 
Realized I wasn't at peace with God and had to patch it up 
Hopin that blessings fall out of the sky 
Z-Ro ain't never seen a man cry until it was his own eye" - Z-Ro

Time will tell... Only time can tell...

I guess one person was actually reading what I was writing.
One complaint... that's one more than I was expecting.

Well times have been rough. Living on the edge, went through a messed up relationship (too good to be true?), lost my cousin George (aka Vicky or aka Spiderman in the breakdancing circuit) on September 1st in Montreal (H-B Blvd). He was going to turn 26 in December. Hit and run, car with an Illinois license plate. Police ain't found shit claiming it's a suicide so I guessed they went and turned the page... "Open and Shut Case Johnson!".
F*ck Them, just one less n!gga to deal with I guess. A mother lost her only son, sisters a brother, we lost a beloved family member, and many others lost a great friend. God Forgives... I don't! F*ck all y'all... F*ck the police... F*ck the media... F*ck me for sounding this retarded... Hope to God nothing this bad happens to you or anybody out there.

"Yo...on The Amen, Corner I stood lookin at my former hood
Felt the spirit in the wind, knew my friend was gone for good
Threw dirt on the casket, the hurt, I couldn't mask it
Mixin down emotions, struggle I hadn't mastered
I choreograph seven steps to heaven
And hell, waiting to exhale and make the bread leavened" - Common

"You killed my man, you killed my man
And you sent him back
After this day, watch your hats
Slugs flying everywhere,
You could smell havoc in the air
You can never get the god, yeah" - Ghostface Killah

P.S.: now that you have him God.. please don't stop his ascencion.