Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts

Monday, November 2, 2009

How I feel... Defined by Lyrics Vol. 3, No. 11


Today I learned Fido deleted all my saved voicemail messages... They said they couldn't do anything about it.

Two of these messages were from my cousin Vicky, one telling me to wake up, the other wishing me happy birthday... I'm in tears (RIP Vicky)...

Here is another regret to add to the already long list... I should have recorded those messages...

I'm sorry cousin...

Monday, December 18, 2006

Time will tell... Only time can tell... Pt. 2


Something happens when you lose someone you love.
Then, things don't happen anymore because you lost them...

My cousin would have turned 26 today. I won't be able to call him and wish him a happy birthday on the 21st like I used to... for some reason always 3 days late. Won't have anymore 3hr conversations with him about how he thought 2Pac still ruled the hip hop world, while I was building cases for some of my favorite rappers alive. No more talking about break beats I had heard he could probably have sampled to complete the vibe of his latest verse he read out loud. No more discussing movies we just saw and how we would make them a whole lot better by changing the script, actors, location, etc...

No more uplifting each other to act on concepts, ideas & projects that were sitting in the back of each other's minds to make them become reality. No more making him listen to music through my busted phone ("can you hear it now?").
No more sharing of childhood memories of when we were snot-nose kids running around in the backyard or in the park from sun up to sun down. And a whole lot more.
26 yrs old... So much taken away... I wanted to share stories with his kids about how we had it good when we were young. I wanted him to show my kids how to pop & lock, be quickwitted and talk slick. I wonder if... he looks down at us... what is he thinking... will I ever know... He believed in me. And I believed in him. Happy Birthday Vicky! Hope ur celebrating up there with Grandmanman, my godfather Zachary and all of them
RIP - George Veildersheen Labranche (1980-2006) aka Vicky

"When I die, I hope to be A better man than you thought I could be" - Motherlode

"Save a place in heaven 'til the next time we meet forever!" - Jay-Z

"Dear momma don't cry, your baby boy's doin good
Tell the homies I'm in heaven and they ain't got hoods
Seen a show with Marvin Gaye last night, it had me shook
Drinkin peppermint Schnapps, with Jackie Wilson, and Sam Cooke
Then some lady named Billie Holiday Sang
sittin there kickin it with Malcolm, 'til the day came Little LaTasha sho' grown
Tell the lady in the liquor that she's forgiven, so come home
Maybe in time you'll understand only God can save us
When Miles Davis cuttin lose with the band
Just think of all the people that you knew in the past that passed on, they in heaven, found peace at last
Picture a place that they exist, together
There has to be a place better than this, in heaven
So right before I sleep, dear God, what I'm askin
Remember this face, save me a place, in thug's mansion" - 2Pac

Saturday, November 4, 2006

Time will tell... Only time can tell...


I guess one person was actually reading what I was writing.
One complaint... that's one more than I was expecting.

Well times have been rough. Living on the edge, went through a messed up relationship (too good to be true?), lost my cousin George (aka Vicky or aka Spiderman in the breakdancing circuit) on September 1st in Montreal (H-B Blvd). He was going to turn 26 in December. Hit and run, car with an Illinois license plate. Police ain't found shit claiming it's a suicide so I guessed they went and turned the page... "Open and Shut Case Johnson!".
F*ck Them, just one less n!gga to deal with I guess. A mother lost her only son, sisters a brother, we lost a beloved family member, and many others lost a great friend. God Forgives... I don't! F*ck all y'all... F*ck the police... F*ck the media... F*ck me for sounding this retarded... Hope to God nothing this bad happens to you or anybody out there.

"Yo...on The Amen, Corner I stood lookin at my former hood
Felt the spirit in the wind, knew my friend was gone for good
Threw dirt on the casket, the hurt, I couldn't mask it
Mixin down emotions, struggle I hadn't mastered
I choreograph seven steps to heaven
And hell, waiting to exhale and make the bread leavened" - Common

"You killed my man, you killed my man
And you sent him back
After this day, watch your hats
Slugs flying everywhere,
You could smell havoc in the air
You can never get the god, yeah" - Ghostface Killah

P.S.: now that you have him God.. please don't stop his ascencion.